i'm sure i'm not the only one in this world who feels like there's too many things to juggle at the same time. work vs family. i want them both but at the moment i feel like there's nothing more important to me than my kids. i love my job and i'm not really where i wanna be with the job yet, but u know what.. i feel like i just cant be bothered anymore. sometimes i wonder whyyy do i always put myself through hardship when there's always an 'easy way out'... i'm in a good profession and by right i can choose an easier way to work and still earn as much (or even more) by doing something different to what i'm doing now. i guess it's just my pride (u see, i feel like people will judge me if i leave what i'm doing now) and my unwillingness to leave my 'comfort zone' that gets me stuck in the same ol' frustrating routine everyday...
being at home, watching my 3 boys play (n fight) gives me the ultimate pleasure as a person. if i could afford it, i'd like to just stay at home and watch them grow in front of my eyes... i feel really frustrated that because of my busy scheadule, i miss the important things in their lives.. concerts, football tournaments.. they even do their homeworks with my maid! i really wanna be more hands-on when it comes to taking care of my kids but i just dont have the energy after a busy day at work. on my days off, i try to spend time with them as much as i could.. but there's just sooo many things to do.. groceries, shopping, and some 'my time' activities..
i wish i have the guts to make a change for the sake of my family. but will it make a difference???
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